#12

Surprise, surprise.
I’ve not been neglecting this  little spot of mine, sayangs. I’ve just been really busy with things.
So, to mark this coming new year, let’s just go along with what’s new with my life, shall we?
Let’s put things into a list. Oh, don’t you JUST love lists? ;D

• I’ve grown to love myself
  Well, you’ll be glad to know that the very first step to extending your love towards others is to love yourself more : D And that I am accomplishing it; slowly but it’s better than last time. I’m not going into the mirror and telling myself that I’m not that model-thin size anymore: Oh, I am just happy being my size now. I’m look less like a mummy now and more chubby-wubby. Quote some famous celeb, ‘The first way is to feel sexy is to be confident with yourself and love your body as it is.’ Hey, guess what? She’s darn right : D I thank my lovely sayangs for helping me pull through my huge setback last year- I’m a much better person than I am now.
  
• I’ve grown a thicker epidermis
  I admit: I am pretty sensitive when it comes to people and what they do or say : ) I’ve decided that I can’t trust people anymore who tell me or promise they’ve been meaning to do something and all that (insert here bogus excuses and lies) and give me a 110% honesty but of course, when it comes to action, results can’t be trusted, can they? ;D Bah, Hamburg! (Quote Chris) Right now, I realized I’m able to create a force field shield that deflects unwanted animosity from strange new people I do not know off, emit laughing gas to make them just vanquish and subdue the powers of my mind to let them take over me. I could be the next mutant superhero for all you know! But of course, I still haven’t been able to conquer my anger over some ignorant people, but hey, they’re just random outbursts So that makes me pretty human, after all.

• I’ve grown a happy tree
  I’m just letting the music take my feet dancing as I go. (I blame Murakami Haruki: Once again, his books has changed my direction in life.)  I’ve decided to put on my best (and rather ugly-looking) suede shoes and go with all that jazz. I’m happier than I was before, I found things that I’ve lost and in fact, I could say that despite everything that’s been happening, I’m still smiling I grew a happy tree, with lots of love found and more fond memories to look after.

Okay-LA, it’s a very short list la, I admit.
But here are my slight anonymous thank yous to people who made my year a blast. (Some Thank Yous are repeated to the very same people)

• Cupcakes at basketball courts are always yum.
• Driving aimlessly in a car, laughing at really horrible band covers and random shite is a blast.
• It’s great to know there’s someone who I can relate to in some way. Although the radio still hates me in some way.
• Watching the sun set while wading in seawaters is just one memory I won’t forget.
• Our Cosplay plans together just keep growing, don’t they? We need to put a halt to it
• KTM rides to KLCC and McDonald meetings are always fun! : D I’m loving them.
• Random rushworks in a very tiny room is very memorable. I thought that was sorta… interesting and fun
• KARAOKE EMO SESSIONS. HOW CAN I FORGET THAT?! Nothing beats Isabella, NOTHING YOU HEAR!!
• And then there’s crazy Karaoke sessions. The re-enactment of Beyond was wild, and Tuts My Barreh is still in my head.
• MAHJUUUUUUUUUUNG… is fun but gourd, the rules for Sam-Kak-Mahjong is just too confusing for me!
• A free-all you can eat session during Lantern Festival: I miss the Lok-Lok D: And CENDOL.
• Selling stuffs diligently with a headache and orange juice! I’m still a good saleswoman, aren’t I? ;D
• Walking in the rain and park chats. I miss them so much.
• Walking like a drunkard at 4 in the morning and running from PJS9/28 to PJS9/10 is MIGHTY AWESOME OF US XD We should recruit new recruits.
• Going to a place where I’ve never been before in my life. Escape sounded like a good option. I’m missing the smell of the sea now.
• Our very eerie chilling haunted moment in MidValley. You’ve got to admit, that WAS freaky as crap.
• Kinokuniya! : D
• It was fun taking photos with you, even though we’re not from the same anime, but HEY! You’re still someone I really missed hanging out with!
• Midnight chats near the AVH. The laughter, the tears and the crazy singing: They’re just not the same since you’re not here anymore :’ <
• Ranting at Harrot’s. I kinda miss staying over your place but you’re not here anymore :<
• Lighting up lanterns in the park with a whole bunch of people is always fun.
• Performing in front of a crowd with very few practices. I admit, they were memorable.
• Ranting about problems to you, and always taking good advices from you. Let’s see if your forecast ends up right.
• JAM SESSIONS… in the middle of empty classes and also during your class. THAT was fun. ;D

… I KNOW I HAVE A LOT IN MY HEAD.
But my chimney is currently clogged (Well, it’s 2.30am and I should be scolding myself to sleep now).

2009, I’m missing you so much already.

I hope 2010 will do me good (Although it’s not looking too bright at the very start of the year).
May the memories (and photos) increase this year :3

Love you all.
The great BitterGourd loves you all and thinks of you every night in His sleep

Till next time, sayangs.